Day 18 – Change


Life is ever changing.   Just when you think you know how things work, everything shifts.

Reminds me of my high school volleyball days….ROTATE!  Each person had the chance to play every position.

There’s a lot going on in my personal life right now.  Lots of unanswered questions.   And yet, I feel a certain peace….even among the uncertainty.

Each and every day, I keep pushing forward into new things. 

I went and worked out at the gym tonight.  The guy who I met with asked my body to attempt things it hasn’t done in 20 years!

I was sweating and thinking to myself….”Look how easy it is for him!  I can do that!” 


You see, when we don’t challenge ourselves and maintain ourselves,  we become stagnant.  

We were created for life….When we participate in activities that are life giving, we naturally feel better.

Conversely,  when we associate with negative people or situations,  we feel like the life has been sucked out of us or even worse, we shut down, put walls up and exist.

Do you remember the chorus of Melissa Manchester’s song, “Don’t Cry Outloud?”

Don’t cry outloud…..Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings.”

I remember being 12 years old and someone that I cared about very much was moving.  

At that young age, I made a very unhealthy vow through tears which was, “From now on, I won’t get attached and get my hopes up.  That way, I won’t get hurt.”

Man…That’s taken a few months of therapy to reverse!

By taking the small steps I am…..rebooting my body, eating a healthy diet, exercise…..I am opening myself up to change.

Layer by layer….the old is being stripped away and new is coming through in its place.

Through this journey of transformation, I will start to get to know more of the real me. 

One day it will be amazing to me that I was where I am now.

What a day that will be!

Journey on!!


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