“No, dear brothers, I am still not all I should be, but I am bringing all my energies to bear on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.” – Philippians 3:13
I was off work today and in a lot of ways, I accomplished things that needed to be done. Which was really good.
In other ways, today was kind of a real Friday the 13th for me. Had some things happen that are very much life changing.
For a bit, I fell back into the usual space where I was scared and then numb.
Then I thought about what’s happening to me physically and applied the same logic.
When I started this reboot, I gave up my old eating habits and made the conscious decision to become healthy.
Well, being healthy is more than being physically fit.
Today, I put some very unhealthy things to rest in my personal life and yes it was scary, but it’s for my good.
As with my physical health, I will also have to work through the effects of the decisions put forth today.
However, in both cases, the end result will be freedom to live the life that I have let pass me by for too many years.
It’s going to take time and it’s going to be a process, but it’s a path I must go down and a journey I must take.
There is no pride in setting boundaries and taking control of things. It’s more dangerous to just exist.
So today, Friday the 13th, I am taking my life back and letting go of what lies behind and pressing forward into the future that God has planned for me.
I am here for the journey….But He ultimately wants me to enjoy the journey.